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I am a reasonably normal girl in most other ways but I have this big secret and it's weighing me down, which is why I am posting on this forum now- I basically need someone to talk to about it! I know that my feelings are unnatural and shouldn't be acted upon, but the thought of doing so excites me.how do I get over this? Has anybody gone through/ is going through something similar? I don't feel comfortable telling any of this to a councillor or to friends and family. I'm not sure what set this into motion (though it has always been there). which have seemed to be getting stronger lately. I have a boyfriend that is the same age as me, though I find myself becoming increasingly disinterested in him due to my fantasies about young boys. I have no childhood traumas or abuse etc, I had an excellent childhood.

I have also suffered from depression in the recent past. It may also be worth mentioning that I do suffer from OCD, however I don't believe this to be a case of POCD (obsessing about being a pedophile). I am actually bisexual but I am not attracted to underage girls AT ALL. I don't generally find myself attracted to boys under 10, however there have been a few instances in which I have been, though it is not in quite the same way as I desire the older boys. I find myself sexually attracted to boys that are usually around this age group, though it is not just sexual- sometimes I find myself desiring a relationship with them. I know I referred to myself as a 'pedophile', but (after doing some research into my attraction) I believe I am something called a 'hebephile', meaning I am mostly attracted to 11-14 year olds.

Obviously this was fine when I was younger, but now that I am 20 it is a real problem. I am a 20 year old woman and for as long as I can remember I have been attracted to young boys.

Hi, this is my first post here so I'm not sure quite what to expect or if I will even get any replies, but I really feel like I have no other place to turn for help.